Today has been one of those days that I have sat and wondered a lot about the masks we put on for different people in our lives. I wonder if I fully have ever allowed anyone to see and know the whole me. I believe in life we either mask who we are, or we only allow for most to see just parts of us. I think, I have tried with a selected few to be as open and honest about who I am. I’ve opened up parts of my souls and inner demons to them, allowed for them to see the deepest of my scars to the most superficial. But even with that, I truly wonder if they know all of me. I think I’m starting to doubt that they do. I think as we evolve as human beings, we start to change some core parts of what or who we are. If we are not cautious of allowing others to see the changes, then we are walking around masking the new us. I think it is quite the challenge to talk to others without a mask, whether it be a full or half mask. We fear rejection, disappointment and vulnerability. It is quite frightening to let go of your mask and walk the universe being the real you. Although, I must imagine it is probably also the most freeing experience to have. I am not sure that I can or ever will be able to achieve that experience, but I will make it one of my life goals to try. I will also make a cautious effort to encourage the many wonderful relationships I have in my life to do the same. To talk to me without their masks and not be afraid of rejection or judgment. I want to create a place where the mask can come off and they can see , that the universe still views them as wonderful human beings, in spite of or because of their story, demons, mistakes or choices. The reality in this is that everyone has demons or regrets that they carry, no one is free of mistakes. Maybe one day, humanity as a whole, will make it easier for everyone to strip themselves of the masks without fear. For now, I guess I will continue to allow some to view only parts of me, in hopes that one day, I’m brave enough to let them in to see all of me.
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Out with the old in with the new!!…but new what?
I guess it would only be right to say our goodbye’s to this wonderful year! For better or worse, we got through it and we are here today, alive being able to celebrate the coming of the new year. I wrote my first blog a year ago on this very topic. I see so many people ready for this year to be over. Ready to start the new year. Although I look forward to what 2012 has in store for me, I leave this past year with many great and some sad memories. None that I would change. You see, to me, it is my belief that the events that occurred this past year help mold me in to the better and stronger person I will be in the coming year. I think too many times people get caught up in the celebrations of the coming year, but not many reflect and are grateful for the many blessings that the past year brought to them.
This year, I learned, that your life can change from one moment to another. My husband lost his father this past year, my daughters lost a grandfather and their grandmother lost a husband. A very sad day for his loved ones. It is because of this event that 2011 will not be forgotten in the hearts closest to him. But with his departure from this world, came a sense of peace. He is in a better place, free from any pain or agony. His loved ones are no longer worried about his suffering and his memory is carried in their hearts.
I turned the BIG 30! My oldest child started middle school and my middle child started kindergarten. Two huge milestones in a child’s life! My daughter’s are older, prettier and smarter, but most importantly, they are healthy, I am healthy!!! 2011 had its challenges but it also had its great and wonderful moments. Moments that I will cherish for a lifetime!
So yes, bring in the new year with hopes of a better tomorrow. With bigger and better dreams and goals to accomplish. Create better opportunities for yourself then the past year. But do it with all the wisdom, knowledge and strength that you carried from 2011!
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